You will not move forward until you have come to peace with yourself. For decades I heard this, repeatedly. I had no idea what it could possibly mean. Only lately have I learned that not loving, accepting and celebrating your beauty, cause immeasurable pain. Until you love yourself, there will forever be a hole that you will fill up with any and all destructive, self-loathing and sabotaging actions and thoughts. There is a border between you and the life you want. It’s only lately I’m finding that I crossed the border years ago. To have everything you want and dreamed for without the knowledge of self to be at peace with it is a special hell.